我要打十個！

An achievement that only I myself would underhand how important it is to me. It may seem small to some, it may seem crazy to some, but for me, it has marked an important milestone in my life.
I have a confession to make. Before this point in life, all I've done was to hide and run away from the things that were scary. Thing that i thought I could not, more like didn't want, to achieve. Everything that included hardworking, perseverance, stimina, I have turned my back on and walked away from. No, not that i wasnt able to do it, I just didn't want to face it. Just a few years back, I dropped 2 courses just because they had final exams back to back, and I couldn't "handle" it.
For 20 some years of my life, i have lived on fluke. All my previous achievements were not a result of hard work. Well, maybe a little bit of procrastination, but that's it, most of it was just frigid fluke. Ya really think I broke 4 school records by training everyday after school? Nah man, I just happen to know how to run fast. Without the practice and hardworking, in regional competitions, I'm shit.
Just a little over a year ago, I had to make a choice. Not the choice of going to a new school, or to end a relationship, those weren't choices, those were a part of destiny that eventually had to come. They came a little too late in fact, I think. But the choice I had to make was simply, "Do or Die". A choice where there was no choice of turning back, no un-do button, no one got your back, there's a frigin bull chasing you with no frigin tree in the nearest mile to climb onto. A choice that wasn't a choice.
Back where I'm from, 18 was the legal age. But I truly think, without having to make the "Do or Die" decision in life, no boy would ever become a man. No way. No friggin' way, kiddo.